In his or her own way, everyone I saw before me looked happy. Whether they were really happy or just looked it, I couldn’t tell. But they did look happy on this pleasant early afternoon in late September, and because of that I felt a kind of loneliness new to me, as if I were the only one here who was not truly part of the scene.
I just disappeared. I do that. I move into another world, a different world. Like boarding a train running parallel.That’s what disappearing is.
Don’t you see?
These days I just can’t seem to say what I mean. I just can’t. Every time I try to say something, it misses the point. Either that or I end up saying the opposite of what I mean. The more I try to get it right the more mixed up it gets. Sometimes I can’t even remember what I was trying to say in the first place. It’s like my body’s split in two and one of me is chasing the other me around a big pillar. We’re running circles around it. The other me has the right words, but I can never catch her.
And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You’ll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.
As we go through life we gradually discover who we are, but the more we discover, the more we lose ourselves.
Even so, there were times
I saw freshness and beauty.
I could smell the air,
and I really loved rock ‘n’ roll.
Tears were warm,
and girls were beautiful,
I liked movie theaters,
the darkness and intimacy,
and I liked the deep,
sad summer nights.
She’s sitting right in front of me, but at the same time she’s a million miles away.
A person learns how to love himself through the simple acts of loving and being loved by someone else.
You can keep as quiet as you like, but one of these days somebody is going to find you.
It is not that the meaning cannot be explained. But there are certain meanings that are lost forever the moment they are explained in words.