A letter to my body: I’m sorry for how much I …

A letter to my body:
I’m sorry for how much I have hated you. How I have shattered glass to hide from your reflection. i’m sorry for the pain i put you through; for the scars that cover your arms and hips, an array of silver lines that will never disappear. I’m sorry for the smoke that stains your lungs and the dugs that I poisoned you with. I’m sorry for starving you, then filling you to the breaking point, before purging you of everything but your empty shell. Im sorry for the times I tried to pull your ribs apart and free myself. Im sorry for the endless bottles of burning liquor I tried to drown you in. Nearly killing you. Im sorry for the tear stains permanently etched into your cheeks from the years I couldn’t bury the waves of agony inside you, and the black circles that hold your sunken eyes. Im sorry your hazel eyes have lost their light and become dark and empty. Im sorry that for years you have carried a broken soul. You deserved so much more, and I’m sorry I couldn’t be better for you. You deserved love and kindness, and I almost broke you. I hope the scars will fade and your smile will return. That you will heal and become whole again. Maybe one day I will be able to find a home in you. I hope that day comes soon.